Disconnected

I feel like I'm not meant to be at school right now, I feel so disconnected from everything happening here. I'm trying to focus but I can't keep my mind off what's happening at home right now. Having your dad in the hospital because of extreme anxiety and your close family friend admitted to the hospital because of cancer is really hard. It's just hard to focus on what's happening here, and continue to do such meaningless tasks compared to lives that I really care about. I know school is important and they want me to stay and succeed here, but it's just hard thinking about what I'm leaving behind right now. I don't like the idea of coming home in April and Carlas face not being there anymore. If we lose her, I don't know what my family will do. I can't go home, so I just need to focus as much as I can and keep them in my prayers.